Drop;

[savesmosquitos.livejournal.com]

 I'm dropping Pleakley, The Grand Councilwoman, Zira, and Sonny.

I was hoping to hang around until a global HMD post went up so I could see what I was doing wrong and fix it. But I realise this entire game is just filled with people who are too talented and out of my league. You guys deserve someone with more experience and less RP newbieness. Sorry for botching up whatever I did, I tried to do things right but I guess I didn't know how. Maybe with more practice things will get better.

 

You guys are all really good at what you do, and I haven't seen one single character that I didn't enjoy reading. The other reason I wanted to wait till an HMD post is because since day one of playing here, I've just wanted to gush about how great, how nice, and much fun you all are. The setting for the game is something that impresses me too, and I love the world the the mods have built for everyone.

I'm really sorry about having to drop now when I had plots with all my characters with all you beautiful people. So please don't feel like I'm just ditching because I don't care; I was really, really looking forward to playing all of them. I was excited and had been planning for so long. I wish I deserved to be here, but maybe I'll see some of you guys around? 
 

Anyway, you are all very fabulous, and you have a right to have better Pleakleys, GCWs, Ziras, and Sonnys. 
 

Thank you for playing with me. I tried my best and had fun while it lasted. 

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Hey guys, I'm chill again. I'm normally kind of lacking a backbone, but you should know that when all this no-fun went down, I'd also been dealing with some lame sad stuff at the hospital I work at, and finding out my mom was sick. Additionally I'm just starting a new full time job as well as some pretty intense accounting classes (which I am crap at), so aside from whatever RP malaise I had going on, there's some other stuff I was occupied with too. 

Anyway, keep on keeping on you cool people, and have a lot of fun!

Comments

[heterochromiia.livejournal.com]

To echo what people have said, there is nothing "wrong" with you or with being a newbie. You have always been polite, friendly, eager to play, and done your best at your characters. I have met people who have RPed far longer than you who were far worse at it and not half so sweet-natured. I am glad that you aren't letting just one comment get you down, but I am sorry that you are feeling down in the first place.

Still, if you are as uncomfortable and self-conscious as you say - hell, you're not alone in that, I know a lot of us have discussed feeling like we're not awesome enough for this game - and you are not having fun as a result, no one should try to force you to stay. RP is a hobby, and my personal hope is that you, me and anyone else who takes it up can play in a place where they can have fun. If you feel like this is not that place, then good luck to you wherever else you decide to go!

I'm sorry to see you go. If at some point you feel comfortable enough to return, I know just about everyone would welcome you back. I hope you don't let this get you too down for long (you are too nice for that!), and that you have all of the fun wherever you end up taking your awesome Lone Canon Warriors next. ♥

[savesmosquitos.livejournal.com]

I'm gonna really miss you Tricks. I was looking forward to wrangling you into one of the plots that were supposed to happen. :(

And d-don't you ever feel not good enough for this game because you are awesome and neat and I hope you have fun to infinite and beyond, and then beyond that too!