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I'm dropping Pleakley, The Grand Councilwoman, Zira, and Sonny.

I was hoping to hang around until a global HMD post went up so I could see what I was doing wrong and fix it. But I realise this entire game is just filled with people who are too talented and out of my league. You guys deserve someone with more experience and less RP newbieness. Sorry for botching up whatever I did, I tried to do things right but I guess I didn't know how. Maybe with more practice things will get better.

You guys are all really good at what you do, and I haven't seen one single character that I didn't enjoy reading. The other reason I wanted to wait till an HMD post is because since day one of playing here, I've just wanted to gush about how great, how nice, and much fun you all are. The setting for the game is something that impresses me too, and I love the world the the mods have built for everyone.

I'm really sorry about having to drop now when I had plots with all my characters with all you beautiful people. So please don't feel like I'm just ditching because I don't care; I was really, really looking forward to playing all of them. I was excited and had been planning for so long. I wish I deserved to be here, but maybe I'll see some of you guys around?

~~Anyway, you are all very fabulous, and you have a right to have better Pleakleys, GCWs, Ziras, and Sonnys.~~

Thank you for playing with me. I tried my best and had fun while it lasted.

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Hey guys, I'm chill again. I'm normally kind of lacking a backbone, but you should know that when all this no-fun went down, I'd also been dealing with some lame sad stuff at the hospital I work at, and finding out my mom was sick. Additionally I'm just starting a new full time job as well as some pretty intense accounting classes (which I am crap at), so aside from whatever RP malaise I had going on, there's some other stuff I was occupied with too.

Anyway, keep on keeping on you cool people, and have a lot of fun!

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One anon calling you a bad player without backing it up with some kind of complaint does not mean you are terrible. It's okay to not be A++++ RPer all the time. Anyone who expects someone to be fucking perfect all the time is a fucking idiot. No one here is the perfect roleplayer and I don't think they expect to be. This is for fun, not srs bsns. If you feel you are lacking then ask people. If you are met with silence, keep asking. As long as you are at least trying to resolve your issues, then it isn't your fault if yu mess up, it's the other person's for not informing yo that you did it when you asked them if you botched it or not.

The HMD is just around the corner and we are full of people who give nothing but polite un-anond crit. There is nothing you do that cannot be fixed as long as you are willing to try and fix it.

Along the same lines, you shouldn't let one comment from an anon get you down. It's RPANONCOMM for one, and for another, anons aren't people and should never be taken to face unless they say something fucking HELPFUL. There is no reason to drop just because of a few minor things and one fucking anon. You're a fine player who occasionally fucks up and guess what? You are also in a game full of good players who occasionally fuck up, so it's Oh-Kay.

And no I'm not going to lie and say you haven't done some awkward things, BUT EVERYONE DOES THAT. YOU ARE NOT THE ONLY PERSON IN THE WORLD WHO MESSES UP.

Just... try and have a little self-confidence and keep your chin up. It gets better, alright? But if you want to drop, if you think the game is not as fun as you'd like it to be or if it's hindering your IRL, then no one will blame you for leaving. But don't let some douchebag anon be the reason you leave. Leave on your own damn terms.

Edited 2011-05-01 22:31 (UTC)

I don't think I'm terrible, I just think that there is a caliber here that I obviously do not meet. I don't know enough about LJ RP conventions to know when to stop asking a question, and the last thing I want to do is annoy the other players. When I'm met with silence that's as far as I'll go, and maybe there's a cultural barrier on my side inhibiting me. Plus regardless of who's fault anything is, it isn't much fun knowing you're disliked without having an idea about how to fix the situation, nor where the dislike may be coming from (though I certainly have my suspicions.)

I am willing to try, but I don't think that this environment is the right place for that. Not when I know there are people here who very much dislike me, but won't tell me who they are. I'll never know, so I'm always running the risk of accidentally tagging them and coming off as annoying, obnoxious or just making myself look stupid.

Again, I don't know the significance of RPANONCOMM because I don't know RP conventions here. And I think they were helpful, because the Anon did what no one else has done, and that's voice some sort of concern.

"Fucking up" is strong language, and even if I only do it occasionally, I still don't know where this is happening and what it is that I am "fucking up." I don't know where these "awkward things" I'm doing are. I mean, I know my grasp of English can be poor sometimes, and I know there is one tag that I blundered on, but why is everyone aware of my faults but me? It is more than a bit alienating.

It isn't the Anon who is forcing me to leave. The Anon just confirms things I was worried about. :(

Yeah, sorry. I tend to use strong language when I am upset, or just pretty regularly.

RPanoncomm is just a place. I mean yeah it's significant to RP but at the same time, what's said there usually doesn't matter much. I can't agree with the fact that anon was helpful because they didn't tell you what was wrong, and to me telling someone what is wrong is just as important as telling them they did something wrong.

While pushing too far is sort of a THING NOT TO DO in most cultures, there's also no way you can fix things with someone by not doing that sometimes. The fact that someone has a problem with you isn't your issue, it's theirs because they haven't told you who they are and why they have it so you can just not tag them or something.

I won't try to change your mind anymore, because it seems you are set on this and I don't want to come off as annoying or insulting by belittling your decision to leave. I can say that I hope you find a good place to try, to improve and be comfortable and learn how RP works better; and that if you ever become comfortable in RP again, I hope you come back when you feel comfortable.

Thank you for saying that. I hope you have a lot of fun forever.

/hugs

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