YEAH I just set it out there on my first day of grad school that a) I basically live online, all you see IRL is just my hologram, and b) I find everything I do pretty much worthwhile, including this. Once I mentioned I ran a game (didn't give the name, ffff) that was inspired by Ray Kurzweil, I think everyone got a sense of what my area of expertise was and where not to fuck with me.
:C BUT THEN I HAVE PEOPLE IN MY COHORT WHO ARE LIKE if it's not a fancy latte and a Salon podcast and The New Yorker it's not academics. I just console myself with the reality that they're a dying breed and what they study will soon be covered under the history department.
This semester has been enough to indicate I probably don't want to be a professional academic, but I won't tolerate a single damn person telling me I'm not qualified as a theorist. I'm the only one in my cohort working as a critic professionally, tyvm.
I went to a public university for undergrad, so it wasn't as though I was at a small school, but the film program was so tiny and intimate and above all, emphasized practice, not ten dollar words to describe everyday ideas. But the larger scale of the film program here and how marginal crit studies is certainly hasn't helped with alienation, hurrrgh. Every week I contemplate dropping out and just being a professional critic, but try getting a decently paying position in that when they can get an 18-year-old to do it for a free game a couple times a month.
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:C BUT THEN I HAVE PEOPLE IN MY COHORT WHO ARE LIKE if it's not a fancy latte and a Salon podcast and The New Yorker it's not academics. I just console myself with the reality that they're a dying breed and what they study will soon be covered under the history department.
This semester has been enough to indicate I probably don't want to be a professional academic, but I won't tolerate a single damn person telling me I'm not qualified as a theorist. I'm the only one in my cohort working as a critic professionally, tyvm.
I went to a public university for undergrad, so it wasn't as though I was at a small school, but the film program was so tiny and intimate and above all, emphasized practice, not ten dollar words to describe everyday ideas. But the larger scale of the film program here and how marginal crit studies is certainly hasn't helped with alienation, hurrrgh. Every week I contemplate dropping out and just being a professional critic, but try getting a decently paying position in that when they can get an 18-year-old to do it for a free game a couple times a month.